+ it's not about me +
my heart aches
something's lacking
something's not right
and i wonder...
as i cry under my blanket
i wonder why
wonder what's lacking
wonder what went wrong
and xinlin, here's it
i finally found why
all the hatred
all the sadness
all the guilt
all the suffering
all the condemnation
and being made fun of
i'd usually keep it in my heart
afraid to hurt others' feelings
thought i could handle it all
thought i knew it all
all that i kept in my heart
and only today i feel the pain
all the while i've been running away
now i know how much it hurts
oh once i thought i knew it all
thought i knew how everyone felt
most of the time i was right
but this pride in me grew
it grew and grew and grew
until it was too much
then i knew
i wasn't great
i learnt, fast
thought i was exceptional
everytime the class didn't understand
i'd have already been sleeping
my ego grew and grew
until on day in secondary two
i found out that i lacked
in my heart i knew something was missing
i still had not placed God first in my heart
days come, days passed
and now, 13 years have come and gone
have i ever made time for God?
all the time, caught up in my own troubles
which i thought i could handle
in the end, just letting it pass
and now collected in my heart
oh the heartache
oh the pain
i've endured it so long
and now i really can't take it
God has always been by my side
but have i trusted him?
i took it forgranted
even though He gave his life
now i know i can't handle it on my own
i give them all to You, oh God
my refuge
my strength
my very present help in time of need
how much i regret the past few years
but now i'll change
i have to change
i reach out for you, Lord
i trust You
i Love You
i give it all to You
thank You lord
and as i pray
even as i continue crying
i begin to see
Your greatness
and i stand in awe
no one can ever compare to You
Your compassion, Your grace
i have finally seen
I LOVE YOU LORD
and i hope everyone else would too
God bless y'all
